I'm debating at whether I should persue my passion for filmmaking or get a degree in computer science instead. I find computer science interesting, but I don't feel academically smart enough to pursue it. On the other hand, the only thing I want to do for the rest of my life is make films.
When I graduated from University, I couldn't get a job. I had so many interviews. Too many to even remember. I failed them all.
Some people said I wasn't the right fit. Some said they'd call back but never did. One guy said he didn't think I had the "balls" to do the job.
After maybe the 20th rejection, I sat on my couch with tears in my eyes and my head in my hands. My mum was trying to console me.
"I don't know if I'll ever get a job," I said to her.
Here's the truth: I didn't want any of those jobs. I wasn't interested in any of them. I just thought that I needed a job as soon as possible and then maybe I'd keep looking for something I really loved.
I didn't apply or go for a single job that I knew I'd really love. Partly because I didn't know exactly what I loved, partly because I hadn't bothered to spend the time looking inside and finding that out, partly because I think I was scared.
This is the point: I failed at what I didn't want.
There are no guarantees. Even with doing stuff you don't want to do. Well, especially with stuff you don't want to do. Because if you don't want to do it then why would you put in extra time? Extra effort? Extra energy? Why would you keep going when it's hard to keep going? Why would you give your all when it's hard enough to give your all to something you love, let alone something you don't?
If you pursue something you don't love, you might fail.
If you pursue something you do love, you might fail.
That's an easy choice, isn't it?
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